This will be a post in progress. Our beginning on this roller coaster journey starts back in 2004 but I guess I could really far back to how I met my husband and such. But I think for now the short version will do. So here are the details:
Married in 2003
Early Miscarriage - 2004
Daughter born in November 2005 - (and of course she was an NHL lockout baby!)
Miscarriage at 12 weeks - 2007
Miscarriage at 11 weeks - 2008
Add in a serious car accident, a diagnosis of low sperm count, follow by a surgery to try to help that situation, births of many friends children and a beautiful niece and nephew (from my sister and only 18 months apart)...and seven years of not using birth control...leads us to today.
Today is a day of heartache and joy...
Joy because we received news that we will have another niece or nephew in October to join our other niece or nephew coming in August...which should have been a cousin for our angel and miracle baby due June 20th, 2013...but our angel Mack didn't make it.
Mack lost her heartbeat at 20 weeks 1 day on Friday, February 1st.
She was born on Sunday, February 3rd, 2013.
I felt her last kicks on Thursday, January 31st, 2013.
Today I am trying to be happy and excited for my brothers, but it is so hard when you heart aches. It has been just over a month since grief took over our lives and each day brings new challenges and moments of joy. Hopefully this blog will bring my focus back, help me to deal with raising an only child and help me find joy in my days. This blog is for Mackenzie Joy, our angel in heaven and for Nora - our angel on Earth.
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